"Wow. Looks like you left your dignity here, too." - Her

"I wake alone, in a woman's room I hardly know,
I wake alone, and pretend that I am finally home,

the room is littered with her books and notebooks,
I imagine what they say, like, "Shoo fly don't bother me,"
I can hardly get myself out of the bed, for fear of never lying in this bed again,

oh christ, I'm not that desperate,
oh no, oh god, I am,

how'd I end up here to begin with, I don't know,
why do I start what I can't finish,
oh please don't barrage me with the questions to all those ugly answers,
my ego's like my stomach, it keeps shitting what I feed it,
but maybe I don't want to finish anything anymore,
maybe I can wait in bed 'til she comes home and whispers,
"You're in my web now, I've come to wrap you up tight 'til it's time to bite down."

I wake alone, in a woman's room I hardly know,
I wake alone, and pretend that I am finally home."





Last night really got under my skin.


You could say I'm having a bit of a crisis of conscience. The events of last night and what I did don't exactly paint the picture of someone who's got their shit together. It's kind of a long story that I don't particularly want to tell here. But, I'm sorry to the both of you. Sincerely.


Bruised knuckles and a nameless girl that doesn't mince words certainly colored my perspective on the direction of my life, one might say.



PS: Sorry about the emo-y update, I just can't seem to shake this.
  • Current Music
    Cursive - "The Recluse"

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emilykirkland024: we're fucking inseperable

KillThePunksDead: we're like bbq-ed ribs and astroglide

KillThePunksDead: shouldn't even be used in the same sentence

emilykirkland024: "I'm going to eat these bbq-ed ribs while you astroglide your ass, let me know when you're ready for me to throw it in there."

KillThePunksDead: yeah, see? horrifying

KillThePunksDead: also, astroglide isn't a verb

"The world is scary, and bigger than you."

Wow, that was weird.


Isn't it funny how exes seem to appear out of nowhere at the most random of times? Still, as awkward as certain details of the night were, it was great to hear her sing again. And to sing with her.
  • Current Music
    her untitled song stuck in my head

This song makes me mildly nostalgic for my small rural hometown.

We walk at the paths at the banks of the mighty Susquehanna,
with our feet made muddy by your tributaries,
that trickle their way to the Chesapeake,
it's like we follow I-83 down to harbor cities with strip malls and tar-mac,
people swirling and teeming,
it seemed so exciting, but now it seems like such a blight,

I grew up near Kentucky's Mt. Zion Road,
and all that was there was some old cemetery,
all I wanted was to be able to walk to the store,
now I don't live there but there's too many stores, some apartments, and a Sunoco.

and I wonder, what did they do with the bodies,
and I wonder, what did they do with the bodies,

oh, Susquehanna,
oh, Susquehanna,
oh, Susquehanna,
oh, Susquehanna,

and I miss that place behind my house where I hiked and climbed and played,
where I ditched this noisy century or just hid out from the decade,
M-I homes thought it could stand to be updated,
forced it all into a grid until it looked like the funny pages,
with every trace of life, it seems, confined within a frame,
the faces move from day to day but the strips all look the same,
and the punch lines are resoundingly unfunny,
for those trapped in this architecture of easy money.

and I feel like this could all come to no good,
the kids who populate these cul-de-sacs will never know what stood,
beneath those cookie cutter houses: fields and streams and woods,
they'll sit in cars and wait for mom to drive them out of this boring neighborhood,


oh, Susquehanna,
oh, Susquehanna,
oh, Susquehanna,
oh, Susquehanna,

and I wonder, what did they do with the bodies,
and I wonder, what did they do with the bodies?
  • Current Music
    Defiance, Ohio - "Oh Susquehanna!"

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Is it just me, or does this chick just look like she's pooping?





Bad placement of that little 'just 1$ for 7 days' thing.

PS: Is that racist?